A close friend of mine asked me a very personal question about my fitness and health. “Through your exercise, what size or weight are you aiming to reach?” You should never ask a lady her weight or size, it’s just impolite. But this was a good friend and I laughed because I had fought with this issue for several years. In my short lifetime, like many other women, I have battled with what my “ideal” size and weight should be. I have had the years where I went into healthy overdrive and shrank to an unhealthy weight and I have had the years where a change in lifestyle and stress level caused me to rise to an unhealthy weight. I know as women we change sizes so much and let’s face it, it effects our self-esteem and our confidence. It’s ridiculous what women will put themselves through in order to try to gain back their self-esteem. Then one brilliant day, I came to terms with one outstanding revelation: no matter my shape, size or age, I will always be ME, and I love ME, so why not just keep on being ME.
So, what’s my ideal size or weight? ME! I want to be a healthy ME. I want to be able to physically play sports that I enjoy or go on a long walk without getting winded. I want to be able to eat chocolate cake guilt-free but also make a healthy dish with vegetables and fruits. I want to go to the doctor for my yearly physical (yes, I do those) and not fear my blood tests and heart checks because I know I am in good health. I want to be able to run after the cows when they get out of the pen, to stop them from going onto the highway. I don’t want my lifestyle to revolving around my workout schedule or feel like I am in competition with other women. I want to have the freedom to go on a leisurely Friday night walk with a friend but also veg out on my couch and watch movies on a Saturday. I want to be able to put in my ear buds and enjoy a podcast and nature while out on a hike on a beautiful Tuesday night, after work. I want to use this time to collect my thoughts and get back in touch with my soul.
I have been doing a little bit more running since it is finally nice outside again, and this is what I am after. I want more of this! I have lowered my resting heart rate 10 beats per minute, to 52 beats per minute and I’ll bet my blood test is awesome. Have I lowered my weight or a pant size? Nope, and that’s ok, because I want to like exercise and I want to look forward to eating. Health is about balance. It is a balance of nutrition, fitness, mental, social, and spiritual. Here’s to your health journey, and finding an ideal size or weight for yourself!